THIS IS IT!

So the Michael Jackson movie comes out next month and I am soooooooo excited!!! Ah!
I can't wait, it's going to be amazing!
OHH EMM GEE!!!!

I can't wait to go with all my besties and family to see it!
Mmmm hmmm. Gonna be so amazing.

End of summer.

Well summer is coming to and end and as much as I sit and resist it, it's coming and there is not a damn thing i can do about it.
I had a blast this summer, I spent almost every day with my best friend and friends, I had an amazing vacation to California to see my besites there, i went to the ocean every day for a week witch was amazing. Spring and Summer are my favorite seasons so i'm dreading winter, fall is okay but winter i can do without. The cold just sucks, the snow is beautiful but i don't wanna be near it or in it. IT SUUUUUCKS!

Oh well seasons change and i have to deal with it, after all i do live in Utah...

Do it Anyway.

People are often unreasonable, illogical, And self-centered; Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you Of selfish, ulterior motives;Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win someFalse friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank; People may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis it is between you and God It was never between you and them anyway.
-Mother Theresa

Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat.
-Mother Teresa

Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired.
-Mother Teresa

Every time you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing.
-Mother Teresa

I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.
-Mother Teresa

If we want a love message to be heard, it has got to be sent out. To keep a lamp burning, we have to keep putting oil in it.
-Mother Teresa

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
-Mother Teresa

In this life we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love.
-Mother Teresa

Intense love does not measure, it just gives.
-Mother Teresa


It is impossible to walk rapidly and be unhappy.
-Mother Teresa

It is not the magnitude of our actions but the amount of love that is put into them that matters.
-Mother Teresa

Jesus said love one another. He didn't say love the whole world.
-Mother Teresa

Joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls.
-Mother Teresa

Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless.
-Mother Teresa

Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love.
-Mother Teresa

Let us more and more insist on raising funds of love, of kindness, of understanding, of peace. Money will come if we seek first the Kingdom of God - the rest will be given.
-Mother Teresa

Let us not be satisfied with just giving money. Money is not enough, money can be got, but they need your hearts to love them. So, spread your love everywhere you go.
-Mother Teresa

Friendships...

Yay! My best friend is finally home from her vacation! It feels like she's been gone for MONTHS! No joke, she's only been gone for like a week and a half though, but to me it felt much longer. Lol.
Thank goodness she is back. YAY!


On another note...

It feels like all my other friendships are hitting speed bumps and pot holes...

My relationship with Jacob is kind of at a stand still, i never really know if we're friends or if Nicki and I are the ones he calls when he doesn't wanna hangout with his gay friends...It hurts my feelings that he can just put our friendship on the back burner like that when we have been friends for 11 years... I don't get it, and i really think that I never will unless he tells me why he treats us like that.

We have made it clear to him though that we do NOT like his gay friends, they are rude, judge mental and just down right bitchy, and i for one don't take that shit. It's disgusting.

As for Andrew, he lives in another state and i'm still not okay with that, he's my gay husband! Gah! I miss him so much it makes me wanna cry, when he calls and texts me it get's even worse cause i just want him to jump in his car and come over and see me. I miss him!!! Thank goodness he's coming home next month for like a week. :)

Nicolle, my best friend for life. She's one person in my life that will forever and always be there.
I know that for a fact, she's my spirit sister, i swear we met in another life. We are so a like in many ways yet so different. We balance each other out witch is amazing. I have no clue what I would do without her. She's my sister, and i'm so glad she's back home.

Shannon, I don't really know where Shannon and I stand, nothing has really been the same between us since she got a boyfriend, her life revolves around this guy. Her friend ships are different with the people she was close with, me being one of them.
Another thing she does is she brings up Impact and always says "i really wanna go i think i'm going to go in such and such month" but then when i bring up the month that she wanted to go to she always comes up with an excuse.... I mean if she really wanted to go and was committed wouldn't she have gone by now? Now when she says those things i have no reaction because it's always been a let down.

Another thing she does is she ALWAYS tells Nicki and I that she wants to hangout with us and she misses us, well whenever we call her to hangout with us she never want's to do what we're doing. Ugh. I'm at my wits ends with this girl at the moment. Blah.


Nicole Wilde, OH MY GOD. She spent almost the whole summer with Nicki and I, not a day went by that the three of us weren't together. The three of us were inseparable for months. Well that is until shit went down with her dick head ex boyfriend. And now...... Well we haven't heard form her for weeks, no make that months. It's really annoying, i felt like she used both of us, she used to come to my house and use my comp to do her work stuff and then she would eat lunch and then just leave when she was done, yes she had other things to do but dude don't fuckin come to my house use my shit and eat my food and then STOP talking to me. NOT COOL.
I'm really hurt that she did those things, it's like mine and Nicki's friend ship was just disposable....Ugh another person i'm done with for awhile.


Sarah, I miss my Sarah. For awhile we were really close, and now i feel like we have so much distance between us. I wish she would come around more, yes i know she has school and work and that she lives clear in BFE, but i miss her and i deserve to see her. SARAH I MISS YOU DAMN IT!

Inner Woman

So at the end of this month I am staffing Inner Woman one again.

I can't tell you enough how much I love this training.
I had sooo many break throughs in my inner woman, i actually had more in there then i did in my quest and maybe even my summit. I love this training sooo much.


I love how I can walk into Inner Woman and not feel at all judged by these women.
I used to "hate" women. I used to despise them actually, i never wanted to be friends with them i never wanted anything to do with them, but now that i have taken inner woman i see women in a whole new light.

We are the birth of the world. We are amazing women of light.
We are the one's that walk in when everyone else is walking out.
We are BEAUTIFUL! Amen!

I can't wait to see this group of women take on this training, it's going to be so beautiful. :)

I AM the Goddess of Peace and Love.