Happy Birthday

So yesterday(May 25th) was my REAL birthday, We and i spent the day and night with my beautiful amazing family (including my EST.1998 crew) they are like my borthers and soul sister. :)

In the morning my mom and I went shopping and then got lunch and brought it home and ate it with my grandma, then my mom surprised me with a cute birthday cake. My favorite colors and my favorite flavor. White cake with whip cream frosting! :D What more could a girl ask for?!

Well..i got more... after eating lunch and cake i went over to my cousins house to hangout with her and the littles. These days it's hard for me not to go over and see them.. We hung out, listened to music, and danced. Then after we were all ready we headed over to Red Robin to meet up with the rest of the family for a family birthday dinner.

Lemme tell you...the food was DELISH! Yummy bacon cheese burger oh and don't forget the asphalt pie i got! Super yummy!! So yummy infact that we ordered another piece. Ha ha.

So all in all i had an amazing birthday :)


Today (May 26th) Is my Grandpa Doug's birthday.

I miss him sooo much. I miss him and think of him every day. It's werid not having him around anymore.. it still feels like yesterday that he was here and now he's not. Even though he passed away back in 98.. still feels like yesterday. :(

So in honor of his birthday my mom and I went and got 3 helium balloons so that me, my mom, and my grandma could each write messages on the balloons. After writing the messages we let the balloons go.

In a weird way it was kind of healing.. telling him everything that i can't tell him now. Yes i know i can talk to him whenever i want, but writing them down and releasing them into the universe felt SO healing.

So all in all the last two days have been pretty amazing, and i couldn't ask for more.
Thank you soo much for all the birthday wishes! I feel soo blessed. :)

xoxo

Early Birthday!

So last saturday on May 14th i celebrated my birthday a little bit early. My real birthday is May 25th but it ALWAYS and forever will fall either ON or by Memorial weekend.. It's actually really annoying cause i think i've actually celebrated it that weekend with my friends like...once. Ha. Sad but true.

Well this year i decided i was going to celebrate it early so everyone i care about could make it. Well most of the poeple i care about showed up.. some people just completely blew it off, which i found really upsetting. Considering i spent 150 bucks on a table and bottle of alcohol.. eh i guess it is what it is. The people that really cared showed up and that's all that counts. :)

So for my birthday celebration i got a table and bottle service at The Hotel/ Club Elevate. It's not the most AWESOME club in Utah but it did it's job for my celebration. :) Funky beats and tasty drinks was all i needed, on and some amazing best friends. I do however have to give a shout out to my besties Liz and Shaun cause they are the ones that hooked me up with this amazing birthday. Thank you besties i love you tons! :D<3

We danced, sang and drank the night away, so all in all it was a great, amazing, beautiful night! Thank you to everyone that came out for my early birthday celebration! I plan on doing something small this coming weekend ( memorial weekend) to celebrate with those that couldn't or just totally forgot to show up.. Ha ha.

Here are some pics of our amazing night! Enjoy! Comments are welcome! :D

How Great Thou Art

I have had this song on repeat for the last 3 days.
It's just been ringing in my soul.. i love love LOVE this song. <3
Enjoy.

Spring!

Spring is finally here!! I can' not tell you how much i love spring. All the beautiful flowers, birds chirping, yard work, walks around the neighborhood. All of my favorite things i love to do when spring finally hits.

I also love when i can go out with friends and not have to wear a jacket outside cause it's freezing! Taking pictures outside and capturing the beauty of things coming to life again after a cold, brutal winter.

Spring is my favorite season by far. I've started going on walks again, i mowed the lawn and got my first blister! That's nothing to be excited about cause it hurts, but that's a sign of hard work to me. Lol.

Spring i welcome you with open arms! :D

Growing

Awe, so my littles are growing up sooo fast!! I can't believe Kyle is going to be turning ONE on Saturday! So crazy, and so not okay with it. I want them to stay littles forever!







From left to right..

Alexia...she will forever ever and always be my first little.. no one can replace her. She is so smart and soo shy. She takes life very seriously and i can already tell she's going to be the strong one of the family.

Alyssa....my little mini me. Since the day she was born she's looked like me and i've been asked time and time again if she's mine. Well as much as i wish she was, she's not. Ha. She does look like me though. She's the fearless one of the bunch..she takes life by the horns and just goes for it. Jumping off tables, falling off things. I think she'll be the first one to go to the emergency room that's for sure.

Kyle..oh my baby Kyle. I can't believe he's already turning ONE! It just seems like he was born yesterday. Time sure does fly by. He's very independent him self right now but he's a mommas boy for sure too. He's so adorable and just the spitting image of his father.

Those are my littles and i can't imagine my life without them. They make those "oh i wish my life was over" days a lot more brighter. I can think of them or just go call them and my energy instantly changes.

I love you Alexia, Alyssa and Kyle. <3

Somebody to Lean On

So I found this song on a mashup website and i fell in love with it the first time i heard it so i decided to make a video with some pictures and share it with others.

I hope you all enjoy it as much as i do. :)

Birthdays!

So if you don't know me, and even if you do you should probably be aware that i LOVE Birthdays.
Don't ask me why...i just do. I love celebrating the day I or someone else came to this amazing place that we call mother earth. I think it's amazing that we get to celebrate the day we came to this place. :)

This weekend is my little cousin Kyle's birthday and i have the honor of making his birthday cake he get's to destroy and i must say that i am suuuper excited! Not only do i love him with all my heart but also love to back. So i get to serve someone i love and do something i love to do.

His birthday cake is going to be rainbow inside. Green, blue, red, orange, and maybe a splash of red (or pink) ha ha. His dad hates girly colors. Lol.

As for my birthday, it's coming up fairly quickly.. it's on may 25th but i get to celebrate it on the 14th because that's the ONLY weekend i and everyone else seems to have free to celebrate it. Ha. So let the celebrating begin early! :D

I'll keep you posted on my birthday plans as they unfold.

If you are reading this on your birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAY and may you have the best birthday EVER! :D<3

Update!

Wow it's been awhile since i've blogged so I thought i should at least give everyone somewhat of an up date.. Ha.

Well first off i got a JOB!! I now work at Naartjie Kids in South Towne Mall. :) I love love love it! I get to see little kids every day and i get to help parents mix and match the cutest outfits you'll ever see. I am working almost every day, and if not every day every other day so it's very nice. I absolutely LOVE the people i work with. We all get a long and we all have goofy personalities so that makes it very light hearted at work most the time, except when my boss Crystal get's on a tangent about EVERYTHING being perfect. I love her to death but sometimes i just wanna scream!! Ha ha.

Uh that's honestly the only thing new that's going on right now.. Ha don't i have such an exciting life?

If you wanna check out the clothing that my store sells visit http://www.naartjiekids.com/

I love love love my place of work so come in and say hi to me whenever you can!! :D

Loss

So this last week my mom and I found out that one of her friends in AA had passed away..We aren't really clear as to how she passes away, but my mom's initial instinct was that she had a drug overdose because the last time my mom had seen and talked to her the disease had completely consumed her life....That was my initial thought as well though..

When my mom first told me that she had passes away i was in total shock..i think i was more effected by her death then my mom....and my mom was close with her for many years except for these past three because Jackie decided to go back out and use...anyways...I think effected me because i thought to myself "I don't wanna have to bury my mom because of this disease, I don't want this horrible disease to take her from me" after having these feelings and thoughts i talked to my mom about it... and the first thing she said to me was "Jess, I love you and that is NEVER going to happen" and the next thing i said was "Well how do you know?" she replied saying "Because i am willing and ready to get better for myself. I don't want this disease to kill me either" after hearing her say that it made me feel somewhat better...

Still i have been having the same thoughts though, about it. I guess that's what happens with a death effects you that much. Another reason I know it has effected me is because Jackie herself had two young daughters around my age. Jerzy 24 and Taylor 19. Jerzy and I went to high school together and later reconnected when our mom's started to hangout more. When i saw her at the view and funeral yesterday and Sunday i instantly pictured that being me.. i know that sounds crazy and stupid after talking with my mom but that's how i felt... it's a weird feeling..a feeling that right now for me can't even be put in words..

The services for Jackie were so very beautiful. Beautiful flowers, beautiful talks given by her two daughters, sister, father and aunt. They all had great beautiful memories of her. And they forever and always will. One thing i am so very sad about though is that Jacki had a grand baby on the way...but one thing her father did say in his talk was "Girls, just know that your mother get's to meet your babies even before you do, she get's to tell them all the great things about you before they even enter this realm we call life" Right when he said that i started sobbing. It made me think about my grandparents that have passed away and how they are up in heaven playing with my future children and telling them all about me... It's such a beautiful thing to know that. And i am blessed to know that.

So all in all the world lost a beautiful soul this week, but now she returns to be with her heavenly father. You will forever and always be missed Jacki, and i know that you are only a whisper away. Love and Light to you and may you fly with the Angels.

http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/saltlaketribune/obituary.aspx?n=jaclyn-kuhn&pid=147650200

That is the link to her opituary, if it does not work her name is Jaclyn Kuhn. I love you miss Jacki and miss you. <3